The Threshold...

That time is really like a threshold...into the world...an open space in front of you and you just have to take one step..you have the world in front of you..everyone "inviting" you...depends on what lures you and you tend or I should say "prompts" to take a step in its direction.

Am talking about the days when you are just about to finish your college and would be left into this "Big Bad World" to take full charge of your life...and you have to broaden your shoulders to take on the future responsibilities...at that time a "moment" questions us as to "Which side would you step in future?" and the answer or the road to that answer is what you have achieved today or working to achieve it still...some find the answer soon and others have a long way to tread..till they get to the destination. Even i faced that "moment" and even i chose something..!!!


Our college was about to finish in a few months and placement sessions had not been very good..and most of us would have to look for jobs ourselves..some "fortunate" ones had their dads business' running and could enjoy the life and still others were busy in trials for love and some others were busy finding a job.I was back home for some days on vacation and had to travel in train to a friends house. It was a hot summer day and i was seated near the window. I was looking outside on the yellow soil land which was all dried up.Wind was blowing faster taking all the yellow soil here and there in circles like a twister.And in some time the soil would settle somewhere when the wind stopped. I was thinking about about how will i look for a job..and I seemed myself to be like the yellow soil moving in the circles with the twister on the dried up ground. At that time i had a small dialogue with that "moment" i met in train which is below.

Title: Awaited

Chalte Chalte ek waqt ka lamha,
maayne zindagi ke samjha gaya.
Bola ,"Chalna hi zindagi hai,
jo ruka woh waqt mein samaa gaya"!!

Main bola, " Chalte bhaagte sung tumhare,
main yahaan tak aaya...
ek pal ruk kar laga sochne
kya khoya kya paya hai!"

Lamha bola, " Khona panaa laga rahega,
yeh zindagi ki reet hai,
Asal kamai hai wahi
tujh sang jo kissi ki preet hai!"

Hans kar phir maine lamhe se kaha,
" yeh vichaar tumhara kaisa hai?
Zindagi ab pehle jaisi nahi,
aaj pyaar ki jagah paisa hai!"

Main aage bola "Yeh daur hai aisa,
jitna kamao utna hi kam hai"
" Lage ho hodh(race) mein", lamha bola
"tum mein us mein kitna dum hai"

Maine samjhaya use,
" Yeh duniya uski, jiski jeet hai"
Woh apni baat pe adigg (unshaken) raha,
"Yeh duniya uski jis mein preet hai"

Keh kar lamha aage badh gaya
main sochta raha, "yaar
Aaj kamaa leta hoon paisa
kal kamaa loonga pyaar"

Date: 4th Nov, 1999, Time:3 p.m.